The apparition of these faces in the crowd

Awwww! ♥ I love you guys!

This was such a nice surprise to log on today and see a bunch of snowflake cookies. *snugs to freckles42, midnitemaraud_r, letmypidgeonsgo, mindabbles, coffee_n_cocoa, danbi, pinkfinity, kerryblaze and heather11483. Seriously, made my day. :^D

So law exams began today. Order is as follows:
1. CivPro
2. Torts [thursday]
3. Contracts [monday]
4. CrimLaw [wednesday]

I feel MUCH better having one under my belt. Granted, I'm sure I'm going to have a massive freakout on tuesday or wednesday about that exam. But... that's for another day.

Now I'm making myself a drink, relaxing for a bit... and then off to start the Torts Marathon.

Also? It's about 99% sure that I will be attending Gallifrey. What can I say? I've been bitten and bitten hard by the con bug. *sheepish* Anyone else going?

♥ I hope you guys are all doing well. I miss you and I miss being able to check up on things on LJ. I just... don't trust myself just yet to not get sucked into the land of LJ. ♥ Love you lots and thank you for all the good vibes lately. They help!

FTR? avengangle? Your reception was SO much more fun.

Yes, Lisa is now married. Wedding was yesterday and it was lovely. How's that for the diplomatic answer? In truth, yesterday was miserable.
1. Florist didn't bring enough flowers. So, we had a runner take one of the bouquets after a bridesmaid walked and took it to the end of the line. Only, they were supposed to take it from the Junior Bridesmaid. Not... a bridesmaid. So guess who got to fucking stand through the service (at least it was just a quick outdoor thing spoken by the Justice of the Peace) holding NOTHING. Yes, that'd be me. Try to get my flowers back afterwards and the girl who got it, refused. Thankfully, I did get a bouquet. It's... not that I CARED, but I still wanted something from the day, even if Lisa has been a royal pain in the ass lately.
2. Everything was so haphazardly done, it was insane.
3. Didn't get what I ordered. The 'count' was wrong, so was stuck with Beef rather than Fish at the reception. Which, at that point, I was so annoyed it was like what else could go wrong?

The majority of the night was just... blargh. Food was nice and the alcohol flowed (which, for lisa wanting top shelf booze, tell me why there was no Jamesons there?) flowed. It was a nice evening all in all -- with the most fun part being, as SJ's family are all Italian -- they played some tarantellas and invited the Italians up. Dad and I were the only Erie-folk who went up and dancing a la The Godfather with them? A blast. Otherwise? I'm just glad it's over.

Sorry I haven't been around as much the past couple of weeks. I had a few health things (which, they've finally figured out part of what's wrong with me. Insulin Resistant FTL!) happenand then the wedding? So I've been a depressed little Lia. ♥ I love you guys muchly.

And have a couple little ficcy projects that I'm working on too. And, if there's interest, perhaps something a bit bigger. (and no, NOT a big bang before you even think about that!) ♥ Love you guys. You're the best. *smooch*

Ugh. I really was going to try and NOT do the sporadic updates. Then Cats happened. Closes this weekend and I can finally find myself again. No more legwarmers.

avengangle I suck. And yes, dinner one of these nights would rock. ♥

The Good
• Got a couple of scholarship offers. No more acceptances which is worrisome. But at least I have someplace.
• Who is continuing to eat my brain. In answer to the questions from the last post? I'm all the way through s1 now. I did things out of order to watch Jack's character arc so NOW am going back through to watch the whole thing. Who is LOVE. And I'm just sorry I was this stubborn for THIS long. Oi.
• Am now the proud owner of a 1950s RAF officer's greatcoat. I've been watching for them for YEARS and finally found one that will fit. And will be LONG.
• Weight watch: 203ish. So I've hit about the 30 lbs lost mark, give or take.

The Bad
• Yes, guess who is sick. ME! And this is on top of mother being deathly ill this past week too. Stayed home from work. Am about to go into the doc's and have bloodwork taken. JOY AND RAPTURE. Only not.
• Got Dinged by American two days ago. And their letter was RUDE. In not so many words they basically said "Yes, we saw your softs. But we look at LSATs and while some people could be successful even with low numbers, we don't think you will. Go to hell."

The Ugly
• Case Western. Sending me a package with a BIG-ASS WHITE ENVELOPE with the opening lines of "Thank you for your recent application to CWRU. On behalf of Dean Robert Rawson and our faculty and staff, I am pleased to provide you with the latest Admissions Bulletin for the school of law." Bastard. Don't start out a "here's info on the school" letter like a damned Acceptance letter. And people wonder why lawyers are jackasses.


♥ Finally getting back to my computer and starting to catch up with my flist. I know I haven't been commenting as much as I normally do, and I'm sorry. It's feeling like the old mental issues of lurking and hiding are creeping up. Which is one of the reasons I'm seeing the doc today and have them check my thyroid levels. My mood swings lately have been wretched. ♥ I love you guys. Seriously.

And, too, if you're having a bad day -- or even a good day! -- and want a hug from Lia, all comments to this post come with hugs. Just sayin'.


[Also! Please point me in the direction of your Valentinr if you have one. I know I've missed a bunch and I want to send notes! ♥]

Driveby posting:

1. Folks go back to work on Monday. Thank GOD. Cleaning = teh suck. That is all.

2. The Dark Knight is all sorts of awesome. Ten shades of it really. Need to see it again to take in all the little things I couldn't take in the first time around. But I loved it. And Gaz is brilliant. And Bale... take me now plz.

3. I have that massively large post to do for people, but as of right now, this will have to suffice:
If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

4. hp_summersmut is coming along swimmingly! It's shaping up to be a brilliant fest.

5. Thanks everyone for all the birthday wishes: be they IMs, txts or comments/posts. I love you guys. *points up to No.3* Yes, I do love you muchly.

6. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY!! I have a job. XD a real, full time with benefits job. *bows* You're looking at the new assistant costume designer at the Playhouse. I'm so completely and totally stoked it's not funny!

♥♥♥ hope everyone's had a brilliant week!

This has just been... such a crap week. Scratch that, a crap year.

Seriously. Where's that restart button.

I'm actually really thankful I have a meeting with my therapist tomorrow to do some unloading. ♥ I appreciate all the offers to chat but there are times when in person is just... it's different. I've tried talking to my parents about Anj, but they just don't get it. I think it's a generational thing, really.

They see her as an acquaintance and several times when I've tried to talk to them about it, I get corrected when I refer to her as a friend. In their minds, because I never sat down and had coffee with her, she's not a 'true friend'. Did we exchange a boat-load of IMs? No. But we made a connection, and sometimes that's all that matters.

On top of that... my grandfather's in the hospital. Those of you who have been around here for a while know there's... not much love lost with him anymore. He's now speaking to us... it's been over a year since we exchanged words after he hung up on my mother after telling her twice to 'shut up'. How HE remembers it... he called THREE months ago and tried to tell mom that he fell and she wouldn't let him get a word in edgewise. Which is a total lie. But now he's ill and has been in and out of hospital for the past couple of weeks. I honestly don't know how I feel about this, but I see how it's tearing dad apart right now. He hates his father with a passion, yet he still is his father and my dad has to deal with all of this. On top of that, my uncle and the woman he cheated on my aunt with and married two years ago (her fifth, his fourth marriage) -- are now on the outs.

There's family stress. There's me not really being able to mourn the way I need to mourn.

This gets easier, right?

♥♥ in case I haven't told you guys lately -- I love you all. I honestly and truly do.

I have a massively long thank-you post that is forthcoming. But right now I just want to say thank you to you guys. This past week and a few days have been so very, very rough -- and I just want to thank you all for your support. I'm doing better and the memorial service was lovelyl

I'm still in mourning for him and I know I will be for a while. I just want to thank all of you for your support this past week. It absolutely means the world to me.

For those of you new to my journal -- no, it really isn't that depressing, I promise! In fact -- here's a bit of fun and friendly competition!

Support Team Phoenix!

Go Team Phoenix! So much better than Team Iguana Dragon. Really... a lizard?

Going to do a numbered list because... it's best suited to my semi-sleepy brain.

1. And probably most important... a HUGE thank you to daleked who bought me a permanent account for my IJ. I seriously do not know what to say, hon. Aside from, after my week, to open up my inbox and see that absolutely made my week.

Which leads into number two.

2. Thank you all for.... well, for everything this past week. I can safely say it was one of the most hellish weeks probably ever, especially down at the theatre.

What went on -- the reader's digest version is that I had words with a very good friend at the theatre who was also directing the show. What happened -- is that, while doing Miss Saigon we don't have the instruments, namely the percussion instruments or the bamboo flutes. So Patrick (the music director) in his infinite wisdom rented this machine called an OrchExtra. For those not familiar with it, it's a machine that, with a press of a button can basically play the ENTIRE show, consequently making actual musicians not needed. Well, to start with, the machine wasn't used as just the percussion because "the orchestra was having problems so we're just going to have it play the WHOLE score for a couple of nights." See the orchestra get pissed. I said I was going to leave and come back when the OrchExtra wasn't playing everything because I knew my part. Richard (said director) YELLED at me from across the theatre and basically implied that I was a prima donna and how DARE I walk out on the theatre. Etc and so forth.

That was sunday. Tuesday, the guy playing the OrchExtra had to leave early and the entire thing just fell apart because Patrick refused to use someone playing the piano conductor score. We have yet to get through the show without stopping for any number of reasons... and we opened Thursday. Our two leads nearly walked out. The orchestra nearly walked. I spent probably a good three hours on the phone with Andrew down in Florida talking to him about how we could fix this. In the end, the show did go off fine and it's getting better each night. It just... has been one of the worst experiences.

I have since talked to Richard and he said that the issues with Patrick would be resolved. So -- they get one more chance. I'll do Thoroughly Modern Millie in September and if things aren't better -- especially Patrick learning to talk to the orchestra without sounding condescending and acting like he knows everything when he really is a fucking idiot -- then I am done. So they have one more chance as much as it kills me to say it.

So... just... I thank you all for your support and comments. I cannot tell you how much it meant to me and was the only way I actually got through this past week.

3. I tossed my name into The Epilogue Meme so -- there's that.

4. I also have tried to friend as many of you lot as I can find on IJ, GJ, or JF. So if I've missed you, please do poke me. :)

5. Probably should have mentioned this sooner -- but I DID get the job at Penn State. I've mostly been doing editing, but I love it anyway. Right now it's just 9 hours a week and I'm enjoying what I'm doing. Yaye!

6. I'm in the process of moving fic, most likely to IJ right now. I will get you guys more info on Scribblit too, even in spite of the fact that the servers are hosted in Canada. Also, once I get through all the current members of hp_summersmut I will begin posting fics once more. I'm hoping to start posting once more by Wednesday. I've hated to not have fics going up, but I have to cover my own ass too. >.<

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