The apparition of these faces in the crowd

Hello. Yes, I exist. ♥ thank you guys for the well wishes for law school. Now is the waiting game. So yeah, when the letters start coming in, you all will be the first to know. Keep the fingers crossed for me! *cuddles*

1. Found out today that Dr Feldman passed away a month ago. I had... no idea. And, frankly, am really pissed off at Cleland. I've been emailing him back and forth all through November about letters of recommendation. He could have fucking said something. But yeah, he passed away from ALS -- so I've lost two professors who meant the world to me in the space of 10 months. I'm just this side of a wreck.

2. Had a good friend of mine come out to me tonight. Which... was a very weird situation all around. I swear, I collect gay men like a bloody harem. Not that I'm complaining? But sheesh. And it's a really rough situation for him too and I feel isnanely, insanely bad for him. :(

3. I... might have a boy. I gave in and did one of those internet sites just to try as, well, where do I spend my time? The theatre. Who do I tend to meet there? Gay males. And while I love my harem... not exactly conducive to finding a boyfriend. So met a guy on one of the sites... and invited him to the show tonight. We hit it off really well (even with said harem in the wings and watching boy's every move. *g*) He's a year younger than me... but taller which teh girly side approves of most heartily. Best line of the night? avengangle? Ben will get a kick out of this.
Me: I'm a geek. I run LINUX.
Him: Cute AND runs Linux? I'm a lucky guy.

So... he asked me out on Tuesday. I'm... more than a little giddy. But giddy and also really fucking depressed. *sigh*

Can 2008 start over? preferably RIGHT now?

What is it this year? we're knocking out the musicologists one by one?

First Dr Hartzell and now Anj. For those who may not have heard, a truly amazing person was taken from us: anjenue (formerly rosesanguina was killed in a car accident last night. There's a community set up in her memory for people to leave thoughts and rememberances and found at we_love_you_anj.

My wish... if there are people you love, tell them. If there are those you should talk to more... don't put it off. Anj and I always said we'd talk more... and now it will never come to pass. I've lost two truly amazing people in my life within the span of a few short months. I'm a wreck. I have to go through my external haddrive and pull off all the music I've gotten from her over the years.

I'm reposting what I said in we_love_you_anj

Anj and I met several years ago, and I cannot remember if it was through playing together at the_leaky or if it was through fandom. But we were both music history majors. She getting her master's in ethnomusicology and I had just picked up my second major in undergrad in music history. I remember thinking how cool it was to actually meet someone who was interested in the same field I was.

One thing led to another and we began to talk a lot. Not every day, but we'd catch up now and then and I always cherished every one of our conversations. Between our love for all things RENT to music stuff... to what have you.

We always swore we'd talk more, but it never came about. Now, it's one of my biggest regrets.

We may not have been close but we were good friends. I still have the christmas card she sent me last year. The kind words she said... I think that's what I'll always remember is her kindness.

Anj... you were taken from us all far too soon.

To quote The West Wing... "The streets of heaven are too crowded with angels, but every time we think we have measured our capacity to meet a challenge, we look up and we're reminded that that capacity may well be limitless."

You will be missed. ♥

God... my LJ has been morbid this week hasn't it?

R.I.P Heath

He has such a great role to go out on this summer.

I feel like crawling under a rock right now.

Also... so much love for you guys for all your kind words. I haven't been able to reply yet without breaking down but just know that your thoughts mean the world to me. ♥

Nine hundred thirty thousand, one hundred eighty minutes.

I'm surprised no one mentioned this on my flist (at least that I saw over the past couple of days). RENT to close in June. While I'm sad... and now really need to get to NYC to see it before it closes? The end of the article actually makes me glad it's closing.

the ending of the show’s Broadway run would mean more shows in high schools and small theaters, a development he embraces. -- Jonathan's dad.

The dude gets it. Seriously. As the show was always intended for the masses. Though one thing his dad also said that makes me sniffle: "“for essentially 12 years I’ve been saying I’d trade the whole business in if Jonny could still be alive. I still feel that way.” I can't believe we're coming up to the 12 year anniversary of his death (on the 25th). That... was such a tragedy. IMO -- he was probably one of the few people who actually could have run with musical theatre with Sondheim getting up there in age.

And in sadder news: Bobby Fischer, Chess Master, Dies at 64. I obviously am too young to be around when he was in his heyday... but I always found him fascinating. Probably shall watch Searching for Bobby Fischer tonight in memorium.

RIP Steve Irwin

You know, in case any of you haven't seen this yet.

It's one of those... you knew it'd come some time given what he does. Still, it's a shock. And I feel awful for his wife and kids too.

:(((

*sniff*