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[thescarletwoman]

I appreciate all the comments and while I haven't gotten to reply to everything I really appreciate the insight. A lot of it, I'm mulling over right now and am not really sure how to reply. But it's been wonderful food for thought.

I'm just... I feel like I'm at a breaking point between not being where I want to be in my life right now, still living at home and any number of other ills. If I could afford it right now, I'd be packing up and just moving to Cleveland or DC right about now. Or crashing on my cousin's couch in NYC until she and SJ threw me out.

This will even out -- it always does. I just feel like I'm floundering suddenly and whenever I try to paddle I push myself more under water. I think it all came to a head last night when I had a bit of a mental breakdown. Maybe more than a bit of one... *shifty* I think a lot of it is that I'm not where I expected to be right now at this point in my life. I'm working retail (yes, I still have the one job even if I left the station a few weeks back) and it feels like a dead-end job. That I'm not going anywhere at present and I'm just stuck.

Please tell me this feeling goes away.

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[elaothien.livejournal.com]

*huggles* It will get better, trust me. If _I_ can get better, you can too. Time and some planning are all you need. Believe me, I'm not where I thought I'd be at this point in my life. I should just be starting my career, instead, I'm just now starting school (which I thought I was never going to be able to do). If things had gone as I'd planned, then I probably wouldn't know most of my current friends and who knows where I'd be. It was a scary leap from a cliff, to start school with no job and no idea how I was going to pay my bills, but I'm making headway... I know you can too. You just need to find the right cliff to jump off of. :)

[thescarletwoman.livejournal.com]

*cuddles and loves*

Yeah, it's finding the right cliff that's the hard part.