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[thescarletwoman]

I appreciate all the comments and while I haven't gotten to reply to everything I really appreciate the insight. A lot of it, I'm mulling over right now and am not really sure how to reply. But it's been wonderful food for thought.

I'm just... I feel like I'm at a breaking point between not being where I want to be in my life right now, still living at home and any number of other ills. If I could afford it right now, I'd be packing up and just moving to Cleveland or DC right about now. Or crashing on my cousin's couch in NYC until she and SJ threw me out.

This will even out -- it always does. I just feel like I'm floundering suddenly and whenever I try to paddle I push myself more under water. I think it all came to a head last night when I had a bit of a mental breakdown. Maybe more than a bit of one... *shifty* I think a lot of it is that I'm not where I expected to be right now at this point in my life. I'm working retail (yes, I still have the one job even if I left the station a few weeks back) and it feels like a dead-end job. That I'm not going anywhere at present and I'm just stuck.

Please tell me this feeling goes away.

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[adaptor.livejournal.com]

"Please tell me this feeling goes away."

It does.

It really, really does.

(It comes back too, but smaller and less threatening. More like the angry little neighboorhood yappy dog that's all of a foot tall and can never remember that you've been living across the street from his house for twenty years.)

[thescarletwoman.livejournal.com]

I love your imagery, love. I really, really do.

*needs to come out to LA and spend a week with you one of these days. Seriously*