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[thescarletwoman]

I appreciate all the comments and while I haven't gotten to reply to everything I really appreciate the insight. A lot of it, I'm mulling over right now and am not really sure how to reply. But it's been wonderful food for thought.

I'm just... I feel like I'm at a breaking point between not being where I want to be in my life right now, still living at home and any number of other ills. If I could afford it right now, I'd be packing up and just moving to Cleveland or DC right about now. Or crashing on my cousin's couch in NYC until she and SJ threw me out.

This will even out -- it always does. I just feel like I'm floundering suddenly and whenever I try to paddle I push myself more under water. I think it all came to a head last night when I had a bit of a mental breakdown. Maybe more than a bit of one... *shifty* I think a lot of it is that I'm not where I expected to be right now at this point in my life. I'm working retail (yes, I still have the one job even if I left the station a few weeks back) and it feels like a dead-end job. That I'm not going anywhere at present and I'm just stuck.

Please tell me this feeling goes away.

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[the_rainbow_jen]

I think the reality of the situation can feel overwhelming. Lord knows, I get overwhelmed just at the thought that my job will be gone in May. And I've only put in one application so far. If you're at the limits of your patience, act. The worst that can happen is you remain at home, yes?

This business of becoming grownups is definitely not nearly as calm or fun as it seems when we're kids.

[thescarletwoman.livejournal.com]

Yes, that is true is that I stay at home -- and it's really not so bad considering. It's just one of those... I'm ready to get on with my life type things.

No, becoming a grownup isn't all it's cracked up to be.