*sigh*

[thescarletwoman]

and then there are times I wonder why I even bother writing. I just got a review that made me feel so horrible about myself and my ability to write that I'm nearly in tears.

The one thing I've always prided myself on is characterizations. And how I craft a fic. The last thing I wrote... it wasn't intended on being a ground-breaking piece of fiction. Hell, it was mostly crackish if you'd actually read. There were things I didn't want to go into as an author and wanted to create a humourous atmosphere.

Apparently I fail and suck as a writer.

Joy.

And on top of that, I'm getting royally FUCKED with my car. The window "works" but it's not perfect. But if I want it back to how it should work, *I* have to pay the 350 bucks to do it. Yet, it was broken on THEIR watch. And then I had the general manager of the place tell me that even if someone smashed in my window while it was in their possession, it's my responsibility to replace it. I'm just livid -- and now telling me I suck as a writer isn't helping.

Anyone have any alcohol? Please?

Comments

[ragdoll.livejournal.com]

*hugs you and passes the bottle* That sucks -- I don't know which story it was (I'm horribly behind because of exchange stuff) but it doesn't matter, that just is mean. If the person in question didn't get what you were trying to do, it's their fault, not yours.

I don't even get reviews and very few comments which makes me wonder why I bother. But I think I'd rather be ignored than have people savage me.

The car thing is insane. Can you check with your insurance company? I know my car window was once broken in a parking lot overnight. Never found the culprit. I was able to file the claim with my car insurance company and they covered all or most of it.

[thescarletwoman.livejournal.com]

*takes the offered bottle* It was the Snarry one that's actually a couple days before this old post. God it's taken me a long time to actually LOOK at this bloody post. *sigh*

Lately I've been getting shoddy reviews. tons of hits, but maybe 1 comment and I'm wondering why I bother too sometimes. *sigh*

With the car, I think we're going to talk to a lawyer. I'm hesitant to talk to the insurance company as PA is a no-fault state, so even if they cover it? My rate will be shot all to hell.

[ragdoll.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know it's hard. I am never sure if a bad review is worse than no reviews at all. Sometimes I can justify it as 'at least someone read it' but...no.

It's really hard. There are some people who get the attention and the accolades no matter what they write and some of them even deserve them. Then there seems to be the other 95% of good writers who get passed over...I'm not big on the BNF conspiracy, but I think there are people who are known and they get read, and other people, not so much. There also seems to have been an influx of bad writers lately so you'd think those of us who are better would get more recognition. Somehow they all seem to like their own sub-par stuff.

On top of that, I just think civility and discourse are dead. I've seen so much negativity and nastiness in so many places lately that it's dead depressing, even from people I care about. (And of course, if anyone treated them the way they treat other people, you'd never ever hear the end of it) I was taught that if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it. Or at least be constructive. I wish that was the standard rather than the exception.

[thescarletwoman.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* That's my feeling too. And even more disheartening is watching a hit counter and seeing how few comments and how many reads.

You would think, wouldn't you? I used to get read a long while ago when I first came into fandom and wrote solely Remus/Sirius fic. Then I did Lusty Month of May and had complete burnout from writing 31 fics in 31 days and also began branching out in what I wrote. Then, I'd turn out 10 good fics in a year (maybe?) as opposed to just turning them out unbetaed unwhatevered... and get little feedback anymore. I don't know if something IS good and people just don't know how to comment or what? And I know I sounds like a whiny bint... *sigh*

I think I know exactly what you're talking about. I was taught the same thing. I don't mind seeing people want to help with writing, but at the same time -- most poeple are in fandom and write here to have a creative outlet and many just want to write, regardless of getting better or not. I swear authors should start adding a concrit: y/n to our headers.